Meeting metta

It was a few days before my 29th birthday and I just had a feeling… could I be pregnant? So I loaded Lazar, Mila + Leo into the car to head to Target to buy some tests. The second we got home, I immediately went to take it. I set it on the table while I put some groceries away. —I thought, this would be the perfect birthday gift and I really needed something special to cheer me up this particular year… I had lost my Dad the month prior and to say the pain was still so raw is an understatement… There was a big part of me that thought, it may not be healthy to be pregnant right now while grieving. However, I knew God makes no mistakes so I couldn’t wait to see the results… “YES” was what the test read! I was overjoyed! It felt nearly immediate that I was having all the symptoms… —and they were kicking my butt I could barely get off the couch. As much as I don’t love being sick, I do love knowing my body is working to grow a sweet little baby, so I was absolutely ok with it!

Fast forward to my first doctors appointment! I just had a great feeling going into that appointment; after all our family had just endured such an unimaginable loss of my Dad, that I felt like God would never allow another… not THAT soon after loosing my Dad at least… I was wrong. I needed a D&C because the baby wasn’t passing on its own, this can get dangerous with the possibly of infection. I waited as long as I could for a miracle, but my OBGYN said it was time after about 4 weeks had gone by and still no natural miscarriage. The morning of the surgery I asked my OB if he could do another ultrasound to be 100% positive there was no signs of life… he was happy to give me that. The baby wasn’t living and most likely passed around 6-7 weeks… I was so sad, so angry, so confused… How could God possibly think this was the right plan for me? It was hard and it took me time to find peace knowing our baby was now in my Dads arms in Heaven! I couldn’t help but wonder, maybe Gods plan only included Lazar, Mila and Leo. I thanked God (and still thank God) for our 3 beautiful children daily, but I couldn’t ignore that lingering feeling like He had more in store for us. Paul and I talked about it and agreed we needed some time to heal more from loosing my Dad and now our baby.

Fast forward yet again… We just moved into our new 1950’s fixer-upper home. I had been spending most of my days unpacking, cleaning, painting and chasing 3 little monkeys around our house! Life without my Dad continued to settle in and I wrestled with my emotions daily… telling myself to fight through the pain and tears. My Dad was my best friend, we just understood each other and our bond was unbreakable… so trying to navigate life without him felt (and still feels) impossible most days, but I could (and still can) hear him telling me to be happy, “don’t cry honey I’m in the greatest place imaginable! I’ll see you so soon! Trust me!” I could hear him, his voice, I still do and I am so thankful for that gift that God allows me to feel him so near!

Being in our new home and having tons of projects to occupy my mind, I could feel the light creeping back in. Joy was starting to fill my days again and the fog of loosing my Dad and recent miscarriage was starting to lift and feel possible to accept. We started our first year of Homeschool and it was going so great! To top it all off, I was pregnant! I was so overjoyed yet again! This was it! God was blessing us with the final link to our family chain! Then, like a freight train, I was hit and knocked down yet again with the reality of loss and it’s tight, unforgiving, relentless grip. I started bleeding and I knew it wasn’t good… My sweet OBGYN and I have been through so much together and he just hugged me and we cried together. He felt my pain alongside me for 3 miscarriages now and knew of my Dads passing as well. He was so kind and supportive giving me all the encouragement and options to help me. I was so broken. It’s as if I was starting to build my happiness back up on a mountain of sand and that loss was a wave that washed it all away… I didn’t know what God was trying to teach me through all of this loss, but I continued to draw near to him and trust His plan. The day I came back from my doctors appointment after my OB had let me know I was for sure miscarrying, God had equipped me with strength and protection. That same day the kids homeschool lesson was all about Abraham and Sarah. It was about God telling Abraham how He was going to bless him and Sarah with a son… they laughed + doubted God because of their old age (thinking it was impossible). God corrected them + assured them nothing is impossible for God. Sure enough God had kept His promise and gave them a son! I had so much doubt after my apt and felt extremely discouraged… but after teaching Lazar and Mila their lesson I felt God telling me the SAME thing! Not to doubt or feel discouraged; God will provide! THEN, later that night a friend and I went to dinner. After dinner we pulled into my driveway and heard a message on the radio talking about the EXACT SAME story of Abraham and Sarah! I was BLOWN away! I had an undeniable feeling that God was sending ME that message! I didn’t know exactly what the future would hold for me and my family, BUT I had tremendous faith that God would provide!

It was a random weekday and I decided I should take a pregnancy test… The test read “Pregnant” Honestly I thought to myself… this probably won’t last. I pushed the negative thoughts and doubt away though and let myself enjoy THAT moment, even if things would change later on, I needed that happy moment to thank God and just enjoy knowing a baby was growing inside me, so that’s exactly what I did!

Metta was on her way and growing perfectly! I was truly just so overjoyed and overwhelmed with thanks the entire pregnancy! Our baby girl was coming and it honestly felt like a dream come true! Spoiler alert… it was a dream come true!

Giving birth in the year 2020 will most likely go down in the history books! It’s a strange time in our world currently and as I’ve always maintained… God has a plan through it all and I plan to continue to draw near to HIM and trust!

Sunday August 2nd, 2020 at 5:14am I realized I wasn’t going to be able to fall back asleep as my contractions were stronger than a Braxton Hick and about every 7-10 minutes apart. I was so excited! I knew Metta was coming and couldn’t wait to meet her! I tried to rest as I knew the drill and what was to come! After basically making myself stay in bed, I got up for the day and started cleaning and washing all the bedding. I wanted everything to be fresh for when I came home with Metta. It was my plan and I had to stick to it! I thought I would be able to make everyone breakfast as I normally make homemade pancakes every Sunday morning, but I was too uncomfortable. I called the hospital to let them know what was up and that I would be coming in today. My OBGYN wasn’t on call and was out of town so the on-call doctor called me to let me know I would need a Covid test prior to surgery and that could take about 4 hours to get the results back so he advised me to come in as soon as I could. That was an unexpected wrench in my plan, but we figured it out. Paul stayed with the kids and I drove myself to the hospital. It was strange driving away from our house, waving to my 3 kiddos, knowing the next time I saw them I would be back with their sister in tow! But I had everything all set and ready. The house was perfectly clean, all the bedding was done, laundry put away and I was showered and ready to meet my sweet baby girl I prayed so hard for! I prayed the entire way to the hospital and felt so many emotions rush in! I was thankful but so sad my mom, dad, and kids wouldn’t be able to come to the hospital. After all my deliveries, my Mom and Dad have been there so this was extra hard because obviously I wouldn’t have my Dad there and not having my Mom either was really sad… I asked God for so much strength to get through it all!

2 long hours after I arrived to the hospital they FINALLY tested me and that Covid test is no fun, especially mid-contraction! The nurses were all so sweet and they made sure to get things going as quickly as they received the results back. They needed to be sure my results were negative otherwise they would’ve had to do a ton of extra prep that would’ve been wasteful and unnecessary obviously if I wasn’t positive. So my contractions got much stronger but I wasn’t in active labor or anything so it was all good. Had I progressed into active labor they would’ve proceeded as if I had Covid and done my c-section accordingly. Thankfully that didn’t have to have to happen as my results came back negative.

After they received my test results things started moving fast! They could tell I was getting more and more uncomfortable and wanted to move things along as quickly as possible for me. Because it was my 4th c-section nothing came as a surprise to me as they prepped me for the surgery. It’s not a fun process but at least I knew what to expect. If you want to read more surgery details read my other kids birth stories. I’ll spare the details here. What I will say, is Paul arrived just in time and things went as they should, my pain was managed during the surgery and as uncomfortable as c-sections are it was all worth it once again!

The second they pulled Metta out and I heard her cry I felt what I always feel in that moment… completely overwhelmed with pure JOY! My baby is HERE!! Praise JESUS!!! She swallowed a good amount of fluid when they pulled her out but she was totally fine as soon as they sucked it all out, although that had Paul and I a little worried as we watched the nurse work quickly to remove it! I’m so thankful for the nurses and doctors God gave us that day, they did a wonderful job and it was a specific prayer I prayed as I drove myself to the hospital that day. I was so grateful to each one of them for the way they cared for Metta and I!

Metta Elizabeth Wise 8lbs. 11oz. 22inches long born at 8:53pm! My sweet baby girl has brought SO MUCH joy, happiness and goodness after so much loss and sadness! She is a true dream! My rainbow!

Life feels so complete with Metta capping off our family! The kids are so in love with her! Bringing her home for the first time was so magical and a day I will never forget (insert happy tears)!!

HAVE FAITH MAMA(S)… remember to never doubt God even during your darkest, saddest moments. Cling to Him and remember He loves YOU and has a beautiful plan for you!!

10 Hospital Bag Essentials


I wrote a blog about what I planned on bringing to the hospital when I was pregnant with Leo and honestly the list has only slightly changed. We will be welcoming our 4th baby to the mix in a little over a month now and I truly think I’ve perfected what is necessary (at least for me) being a c-section Mama and this being my 4th time in this position.

1. Pretty obvious, but the bag you decide to pack all your essentials in can make all the difference. I personally prefer a backpack style bag/diaper bag. This gorgeous bag from Humble Hilo is clearly stunning but also very functional. Like I mentioned it has the backpack-carry option so it won’t get in the way when you are carrying other things or children! haha It also has pouches on each side allowing you to pack bottles or any drink options really. There are great zipper compartments I like to pack smaller items like the diaper rash cream, essential oils, chapstick etc.

2. The fun part is always deciding what outfit you are going to dress your sweet little one in for the first time! I have been completely obsessing over the Lou Lou and Company knotted gowns! They are truly buttery soft, they are stretchy and they have the sleeve flaps that go over your babies hands, keeping them extra cozy and also preventing them from scratching themselves. I love sleepers that offer the sleeve flaps so you don’t have to worry about packing mitts… one less thing to worry about. I also love how easy diaper changes will be with the knotted feature (no buttons to worry about). I love bringing extra head coverings other than what the hospital offers. This time around I am packing a couple bonnets, a hat and a head wrap! Being a c-section Mama my hospital stay is a bit longer so I like to bring multiple options for the multiple days I will be there!


3. Receiving blanket/swaddle. Whenever I have a new babe I always have a receiving blanket near by! It offers so many wonderful functions from a light weight blanket to a spit up rag, nursing cover to a changing pad! I also love to swaddle my babies in a swaddle cloth to keep them extra cozy and warm!


4. Diapering! This is personal preference, but I choose to use The Honest Company for all my kids diapering. I like to bring it in my hospital bag and use on my newborn so they are used to this brand immediately not taking any risk of having to adjust to a different brand. Again, total personal preference but definitely something i’ve found success with.


5. The Nose Frida! I truly believe this product is something every Mama needs to have on hand at all times! I know how ridiculous it may look, but I am telling you this thing is amazing! If you haven’t ever seen or heard of this, its a snot sucker! Don’t worry though, see that blue foam between the two tubes? That is going to catch anything that may be sucked into your mouth! haha The hospital will always have those old school suction things to offer you, but I promise you, the nose frida is way more efficient and will be 100 times less frustrating for your baby when you are trying to clear their little nose!


6. Nursing pillow. I am a huge believer in bringing your nursing pillow to the hospital. Like I mentioned, being a c-section Mama I am required to stay in the hospital longer. So finding optimal comfort while in the hospital is crucial. Nursing a newborn is truly one of the most special things and their tiny little bodies may not weigh a ton, but being sore and maneuvering around a c-section incision can be difficult, so using a nursing pillow really helps! I LOVE the gorgeous nursing pillow covers Madly Wish offers like the one pictured here!


7. Silverettes. These may look a little strange, but again, trust me they are life savers! I used these for the first time after Leo was born and I am here to report they are a Hospital Bag MUST! These are nipple shields that you place on your nipples immediately after your baby is born. The silver provides healing properties so you won’t have to mess around with creams and ice packs! Like I said, nursing your newborn is certainly one of the most magical moments for a Mama, so protecting your nipples in the process will make the breastfeeding journey that much more enjoyable!

8. Being in a hospital just isn’t what I would describe as comfortable, so bringing comfortable items from home really will make your stay as enjoyable as possible. If you are comfortable you will be able to completely focus on your baby! I have found bringing a robe from home and ditching my hospital gown immediately after I give birth, always makes me feel refreshed! I also make sure to bring at least 2 nursing bras as well! Basically all you are going to be doing in the hospital is focusing on your new baby and that means feeding/nursing. These Bravado Body Silk Seemless Nursing bras are a game changer! There are no wires cutting off milk ducts or poking into you while trying to breastfeed. The seamless design of these bras helps lower the risk of getting mastitis; which is huge! If you don’t know what mastitis is be sure to look it up, its no fun and having a good nursing bra truly does make all the difference! The 4-way stretch fabric moves and accommodates your changing shape and the cup that unclips and folds down makes nursing your baby anywhere more accessible and convenient for both you and babe!


9. Going home outfit for Mama! As Moms it can be easy to get caught up in our babies needs and put ours completely on the back burner. However, if we are comfortable it will be easier to focus on our babies. Finding outfits that you can easily nurse in are ideal! This Storq dress can be worn during and after pregnancy so it will be perfect for wearing to the hospital and leaving the hospital, also allowing me to pack less! I will also be bring this Storq nursing cardigan to stay cozy and feel covered and comfortable while nursing!


10. Lastly, you’ll want to bring along all your personal hygiene items and items you’ll want but may overlook! here’s a quick list of things i’ll include in my bag:

-phone and phone charger.

-shampoo and conditioner.

-face wash and moisturizer.

-body lotion and a fresh bar of soap (you can just throw away there).


-makeup and chapstick.

-essential oils.


There you have it, my Hospital Bag Essentials list! I hope this list was helpful! Just remember to Have Faith Mama’s! After all, you just had a baby! Try your best to relax and soak it all in, ask for help and allow people to help you! XO


The Rug that makes the Room!


#sponsored What makes a room? Is it the paint color? The plants? The curtains? THE RUG? I love putting a room together and nothing ties a room together better than the perfect RUG! I’ve had my eye on this beauty from Plush Rugs for so long and couldn’t wait to get it into our new space! 

If you have been following along with me on my Instagram, you know we just moved from a larger, newer home to a smaller, 1950’s cape cod! Many people in our life have told us that we are crazy for downsizing as we are growing and raising our young family; but this move has felt so refreshing! Not having wasted space to worry about has been so inspiring to me. I now feel like I can focus on my true, authentic style… I’ve been able to zone-in on exactly what I like and really pinpoint my personal design preferences.


Like I mentioned, i’ve had my eye on this Berber Shag by Surya rug from Plush Rugs for the longest time, but had nowhere to put it in our old home. Once we finally moved and started to get settled into our new home, I had the ideal place and vision for it, in our main living room. This rug truly does make the room! I couldn’t have been more excited to partner up with Plush Rugs to show you just how outstanding their rugs are and at very affordable prices! Plush Rugs generously gifted me this rug in exchange for an honest review and showcase of it! To say I am blown away by it, is an understatement! It is even more beautiful in real life than online. It is soft and comfortable to the touch, it is exactly the piece this room needed!


The process of renovating an old home can be slow, hence the old rust/camouflage/shag carpeting that lies beneath our beautiful new rug… BUT can you imagine how much more amazing this space is going to look once our new wood floors are installed?! I can hardly wait! Another thing I have realized through this entire process of moving, downsizing and starting fresh, in not only a new home, but a new town as well… is to just dive in! Explore the new town, get involved, set up your home right away, hang the mirror, lay out THE RUG! Why not?! It’s worth jumping in right away instead of waiting and missing out on the process and fun along the way. I thought I would just wait to decorate our house until everything was painted, new floors installed, refinished bathroom and kitchen. But as time passed I realized I would be way more comfortable through this transition if I just made our space beautiful now, after all it’s exciting to have an ever-changing space, leading up to the final look! One day it will ALL get done, and that will be such a great feeling… for now though, I’m just trying to enjoy it in the in-between as well!


You may be thinking why take the risk of incorporating a beautiful white rug, like this one with three young kiddos running around? I have the answer(s)! For one: the rule is to eat in the kitchen and take your shoes off at the door (I mean is that too much to ask?) It’s really pretty gross to think about tracking our shoes all over our home when they have been out on the streets, stores, restaurants, bathrooms, etc… BUT secondly: Plush Rugs also offers tips on how to clean and care for a shag rug! Now that’s a game changer! Lord knows, we could all use some cleaning tips and tricks!


If you have been waiting to put together the room or space of your dreams because the floors aren’t done or the walls aren’t painted, you name it… STOP waiting and dive in! Make it pretty along the way, document the process and one day you will look back and be so proud of the progress! I’m so happy I went ahead and unrolled this gorgeous rug because it truly makes the room and makes me feel more at Home!

HAVE FAITH MAMA(S)… Dive in and don’t worry about the details too much, enjoy the process and don’t think too far ahead! God wants us to enjoy the climb so when we make it to the top, the victory will be that much more rewarding!

Birth + the passion that’s born.

If you’ve never experienced it, it might be hard for you to understand it. When you do experience it, you will never forget it. The passion for it will be born along with your baby.  Each Mother has one, and each Mother has passion for hers. It’s her story, it’s what she accomplished. It’s that thing she never knew she was capable of or strong enough to do… It’s BIRTH!

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If you’ve followed me and my blog, you may know that I have needed c-sections for all 3 of my babies. I am very open and honest about how I feel about these surgeries (if you want to read my detailed birth stories they are all documented here on the blog). I never thought much about birth until I got pregnant with Lazar (my oldest). I always thought of myself as a tough person with a high pain tolerance. I wanted to prove to myself and everyone around me, that I could give birth naturally with no pain medications. I never thought in my wildest dreams that God would have placed me on the path of cesarean births, but He did and I am content with that now. After giving birth, I grew a passion for it. I not only love my own births, but seeing a Mother’s eyes light up and hearing the passion in her voice when she tells her story is such a fascinating and beautiful thing! It’s an intense process bringing another life into this world! Something to be proud of and celebrated, no matter how it happens, no matter how admittedly you were against that epidural or c-section… Your baby is in your arms and suddenly none of the details of how it happened impact you the way you thought they would.  Suddenly you wouldn’t change a thing about it because it’s the exact path God designed for you to meet your brand new child! Poof! a passion is born!

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Although every Mother’s birth story has it’s differences, they also have many similarities as well. After it’s all said and done, we all end up with a beautiful bundle of joy in our arms, making birth and all it’s gory glory completely worth it! I became so passionate about birth that I felt inspired to create this blog so I could document each of my kiddos birth stories… I never wanted to forget any of the details! I also have these beautiful Birth Posters from Sweden to remind me of those 3 very special days. They are customizable illustrations of your child the day they were born! The birth facts are listed on the bottom of the poster and the actual length of your baby is accurately displayed on the poster as well; which is so cool to compare sibling to sibling! I honestly adore the minimal look of the posters and will cherish them forever!

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I came up with the idea to interview a few ladies about their personal birth stories. Each Mom has a very unique story from the other… A c-section Mama, a Hospital birth Mama and a all-natural/home birth Mama. Each of these ladies are strong amazing women who so generously shared personal information about their experiences and each of them have amazing children to show for what they went through!

First up, meet Ana! She is a fellow c-section Mama to 4 gorgeous children!


  1. How many children do you have? How did their births vary if at all? I have 4 children 🙂 2 boys, 2 girls! They were all born via C-section.
  2. Did you have a birth plan? If yes, did it go as you planned? If no, do you wish you had? I did not have a birth plan with my first . Like every mom I just hoped that things would go easy breezy and happen naturally. Things did not go as I anticipated with my first born however. I do wish it would have gone differently but I am also glad I wasn’t adamant about how I wanted my experience to go to the extent of creating a “plan”… this is just an added stressor in a very unpredictable situation in my opinion 🙂
  3. Did you have a vaginal birth or a c-section? If you had a vaginal birth did you receive an epidural? If you had a c-section was it pain free? All my babies were born via c-section.  I was induced with my first born, labored for 12ish hrs ( with the help of an epidural of course!) and things just never progressed to the point of pushing. He never dropped down and his heart rate was stressed because of it, so they went forward with a c-section and then the next three were all scheduled. All of my surgery’s were “pain” free, with the exception of very intense “pressure” from the tugging and pulling and of course, the recovery. Recovery or post surgery was very different with every child. My body always goes through a complete shock mode and I usually get the uncontrollable shakes, vomiting, spinal headaches, dizzy,  and just knocked out from the drugs. When your baby is born you just cherish those first moments or first hours with them skin to skin, however I can’t say I have ever had that. Post surgery has always been very rough for me. Each child brought a new experience and unfortunately it never got much better! I wish I could say differently!
  4. If you could go back and change anything about your birth experience(s) would you? If yes, what? Would I change anything?? Ugh that’s a tough one. I have 4 healthy kiddos and I am alive and well to be there Mom! But of course if I could go back and push for a vbac (vaginal birth after cesarean) with my second child in hopes that things would just go differently , that’s the only thing I kind of look back and say I wish I had done. But I can’t regret going with what the doctors thought was the best and safest route for me.
  5. What advice would you give to expecting Mama’s about birth? If I could give any advice, it would be to go into each birth with very little expectations. To always choose the the safest route for you and your babe, even when it means going ahead with that dreaded c-section that you so adamantly crossed out of your birth plan. I’d also advise mamas to enjoy every second, but that’s just not realistic considering what we have to go through to bring a child into the world, so instead, just reflect and embrace how miraculous pregnancy  is and what an incredible gift it is. This makes a lot of the pain and stress of the process so worth it. And most importantly to pray. Non stop prayers.

Next up, Ally! She is the sweetest Mama of 2 adorable kiddos!


1. How many children do you have? How did their births vary if at all? I have 2 kiddos, Ivy Elizabeth is 3 and Greyson Alan is 11 months. I had two very different birthing experiences and when looking back, I am glad as I learned more about who I am. I was at little Farmer when contractions started with Ivy. All the information I researched at random hours of the night provided no help. After calling the nurse many times, I am sure they thought I was crazy, we went to the hospital. After 16 hours things finally progressed and I received an epidural at 7cm and Ivy came at 1pm, 8lbs 9oz. Greyson had a much different birth. I wanted to try natural, did no research, and invited my mom into the delivery room. 2 weeks before Greyson was due I went for my weekly appointment. I was 5 cms dilated and looked like a hot mess, everyone at work reminded me of that too- eyeroll, so they sent me to the hospital. My water was broke and I went to 8cm within the hour. My Doctor, whom I love and tell her it all the time, said “you can wait for this to progress which could be slow or we go fast and furious, up to you.” I decided fast and furious which included her stretching my cervix as I pushed during contractions. Greyson came within 20 minutes, 9lb 8oz.

2. Did you have a birth plan? If yes, did it go as you planned? If no, do you wish you had? Details are my thing so living in the unknown for 9 months was a bit of a challenge. I “researched” every birthing technique to determine what was best for me, often at 2am which I do not advise. There are so many different schools of thought- water birth, home birth, hospital, and more. A few months before having Ivy, Tommy and I decided, we will determine in the moment what is best for our family. I did not have set birthing plans which I am thankful for and feel like each birthing experience was so different but beautiful.

3. Did you have a vaginal birth or a c-section? If you had a vaginal birth did you receive an epidural? If you had a c-section was it pain free? I had two vaginal births and blessed to say no complications with either. I had an epidural with Ivy which I do not regret but after doing a natural birth with Greyson, I would certinly chose natural again. Story time, it all connects with why I would chose natural, after giving birth to Ivy the epidural began to ware off so I wanted to stand and use the restroom. The nurse helped me sit up and asked me to wait a bit so she could help walk me. While I waited and sitting on the side of the bed, I realized I had given birth as my body was beginning to feel the ache and after birth pain, if you know what I mean. The nurse came back and helped me stand and asked I wait. Since I was standing and felt fine I thought “I can walk, no biggie!” Five seconds later I was sprawled out on the floor laughing and crying. One of my legs was still “numb” and had given out. My sisters were laughing as I looked crazy from the photos I have seen, the nurse was not laughing and I was marked as a fall hazard the rest of our hospital stay. End of story and back to how it connects. I had Greyson within 3 hours of arriving to the hospital and was standing with no help an hour after birth. I loved having the option to move my body in more comfortable positions and being in-tune with what was happening. My doctor

and I were able to communicate when I was ready to push, when she would stretch, and how to breath. With Ivy, everyone had to do things for me because I couldnʼt feel those important moments. Greysons birth felt empowering and allowed me to be in control. I felt my body recover faster and heal itself.

4. If you could go back and change anything about your birth experience(s) would you? If yes, what? I would not change either experience. They were so different and special to Tommy and I in unique ways.

5. What advice would you give to expecting Mama’s about birth? Giving birth is a monumental moment, you become a mama. There is nothing better than that word. For 9 months your body has grown, nurtured, and sheltered a new life. You give birth and so much happens afterwards. Be gentle on yourself and your husband. It is a learning curve for both. Continue to seek moments just the two of you after baby is down, learn about who you are as a mother – learn about who he is as a father, and ask for help when you need it.


Lastly, Meghann! Lovely Mama of two cuties!

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  1. How many children do you have? How did their births vary if at all? 2 children (Sage 2.5 years old & Kale 1 year old) Their births varied a bit. I had Sage in a birth center and had a home birth with Kale. With Sage my water broke 12 hours before contractions started. My labor with Sage was 8 hours and 5 hours with Kale. My placenta had an abruption with Sage. I was plant based (vegan) for my second pregnancy and believe that is why things went “easier”. Kale had to be pulled out by my midwife after I delivered his head. Literally his head was fully out of my vagina but the rest of his body was in (LOL). He was pulled out because he was having a little trouble breathing.
  1. Did you have a birth plan? If yes, did it go as you planned? If no, do you wish you had? Per say. I had a detailed birth plan for Sage. We were originally going to give birth in a hospital, but we transferred to the birth center when I was 33 weeks pregnant. We did that because I showed my hospital midwife my birth plan and her response was, “we’ll see.” After transferring care I didn’t have a birth plan outside of what we were going to accept and deny. The same went for Kale. I did go into labor early with Sage so I assumed I would with Kale and he ended up arriving 1 week late. I learned to never assume anything when it comes to labor, ha! I’m glad we didn’t have a plan because each of my births has had things happen that wouldn’t have been in an ideal plan. Next time I will definitely remind myself that all births are different. The waiting for Kale was tough.
  1. Did you have a vaginal birth or a c-section? If you had a vaginal birth did you receive an epidural? If you had a c-section was it pain free? Both births were unmedicated vaginal births.
  1. If you could go back, and change anything about your birth experience(s) would you? If yes, what? The only thing we would have changed is starting right off at a birth center vs. transferring into care at 33 weeks. Both births were definitely the highlights of my life. Getting married is a highlight, but nothing beats the empowerment of growing and bringing a baby into this world.
  1. What advice would you give to expecting Mama’s about birth?                               1. Get educated. Seek information. Find facts.

+ Interview midwives or doctors. Ask them their statistics of vaginal births and cesarean births.

+ Watch “The Business of Being Born” (it’s free on YouTube).

+ Read “Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth” by Ina May Gaskin.


+ Take birth classes.

+ Invest your money.

  1. Take one contraction at a time. Don’t even think about anything else but riding the current contraction. Contractions are much like waves — they slowly start building, they reach a peak, and then they wash away on the shore. It may sound kind of weird, but that is how I got through my birth with Sage. I had that imagery every single contraction.
  2. This is YOUR birth. You make the shots. Go with your gut.

AAAAAAND… just in case you were wondering, I thought I would answer my own questions as well!

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1. How many children do you have? How did their births vary if at all? I have 3 kiddos: Lazar (almost) 4, Mila (almost) 3 and Leo (almost) 9 months. All 3 born via c-section, although they varied for sure. I wanted to have a water birth with Lazar and had seen a midwife my entire pregnancy with him. I was in labor for nearly 24 hours, trying my darnedest to be tough and avoid any pain medications (which I  adamantly did), only to have the on-call OBGYN come in, per my Midwifes request, telling me my baby was large and not moving down my birth canal… it was hard to be “tough” any longer! He told me I would need a c-section and I sobbed! A c-section was the furthest thing I envisioned for my birthing journey. God had other plans in mind. Mila and Leo’s births were scheduled c-sections although I really wanted to attempt a v-bac (vaginal birth after cesarean) with Mila, but it was only 13 months after giving birth to Lazar and my OBGYN highly recommended against that for multiple reasons. The risks were just too high. I had no choice with Leo, so I scheduled the surgery on his due date only to go into labor a few days earlier, still needing a c-section though.

2. Did you have a birth plan? If yes, did it go as you planned? If no, do you wish you had? I did have a “plan” when pregnant with Lazar. As I mentioned I had hoped to have a water birth. I took the classes and was fully prepared for everything it entailed. Again, God had other plans in mind! I’m just thankful for c-sections because without them my Midwife and OBGYN agreed Lazar and I would not be here today!

3. Did you have a vaginal birth or a c-section? If you had a vaginal birth did you receive an epidural? If you had a c-section was it pain free? I had 3 c-sections and I think there is a common misconception around them. I’ve had people tell me, “well at least you didn’t have to endure any pain or the dreaded ring of fire.” The truth is, cesarean births are anything but pain free. Sure, everyone is different and for some, natural birth isn’t as painful compared to others. The same goes for c-sections. I was in immense pain during my first c-section (read Lazar’s birth story). My second surgery I swear an elephant was sitting on my chest the entire time (read Metting Mila). The amount of pressure, tugging and pulling that happens when the baby is being pulled from your uterus is a feeling that can hardly be explained… Along with a c-section comes a spinal. A spinal is like a higher dose of an epidural it just doesn’t last as long, so it wears off quicker. Unfortunately this means you can’t just get up and walk, or go to the bathroom on your own (hello catheter) and you are basically bed ridden until your legs get feeling back again. I RARELY hear Mama’s who experienced both a natural and c-section birth say they would rather have a c-section (in fact I only know of one Mama who preferred her c-section over her vaginal birth). The recovery is most likely going to double in comparison and the long-term impact can be lifelong (i.e scar, scar tissue, c-section pouch, the list goes on). I don’t want to scare anyone away from c-sections because they are certainly necessary and life-saving in many cases, but just make sure to educate yourself and have full confidence and understanding in your decision.

4. If you could go back and change anything about your birth experience(s) would you? If yes, what? This took me TIME to be ok with, but my answer is no. As I am positive you can tell, I would have never chosen a c-section. But like I have stated over and over again, it wasn’t up to me and I needed to let God take over and follow His plan for me and my babies wellbeing! God is ultimately in control, I prayed during all 22+ hours of that excruciating labor with Lazar and I knew in the end, God was answering my prayers, just not in the way I expected. I am forever thankful for His sovereignty!

5. What advice would you give to expecting Mama’s about birth? Pray! Don’t set too high of expectations for yourself, yet have confidence and believe in yourself! Give yourself grace and know God will see you through it all! Have faith that God designed YOU for this no matter the outcome!

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Birth is a miracle and something God created for women to experience. After reading each Mama’s story I think you can see how it stirs a passion inside each of us! It’s not something to take for granted and it’s not something to be ashamed of, its a gift and something to be proud of and cherished! What a perfect way to remember it by displaying your babies birth poster on your wall! Each time I walk by them in my house, I smile reminiscing over those 3 unforgettable days!

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HAVE FAITH MAMA(S)… Remember, God will see you through your hardest obstacles and He will be there rejoicing with you during your proudest moments! Birth is no exception!

Everybody has a Dream®

Disclosure: Leesa® provided a free mattress for me to review. However, all opinions stated are my own. 

We recently returned home from vacation, and when we arrived, I immediately noticed our Leesa® mattress had too! It ships compressed in a box directly to your front door! How convenient is that!? Oh and did I mention it is free shipping to US, UK and Canada!?!

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Is there anything better than being able to sleep in your own bed after being away for awhile?! We got extra lucky to come home, unbox our new mattress and sleep on it that very same night! It really is A better place to sleep® with its three layers of premium foam. The Leesa® feels hard at first, but as soon as you lay down it perfectly forms to your body, giving support and comfort! I don’t like hard, stiff beds, I basically want to sleep on a cloud and this mattress doesn’t disappoint! I think I woke up in the same position I feel asleep in… and I might have thought it was a fluke because of the two full days we spent driving in the car prior to, but the same thing has been happening the last week as well!

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Not only is Leesa® a great mattress; the company also donates 1 mattress for every 10 sold to local homeless shelters, because lets face it, everyone deserves a good night sleep! It really is remarkable the difference a full night of restful zzz’s makes… As a Mama of 3 kiddos 3 and under I need all the rest and energy I can get before I start the day with them!

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I’ve already noticed I have more energy and feel rejuvenated by morning! It also helps that our sweet Leo boy is sleeping through the night now as well! Let’s just say, we are all getting better sleep these days!

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The signature 4 stripe design makes this mattress almost too pretty to cover up! Leesa® mattresses are made with premium products providing the comfort, support and universal feel everybody seeks for a good night sleep! So, it really does feel as good as it looks!

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I was genuinely happy to work with Leesa® not only because of their generosity to the homeless community but because they also plant 1 tree for every mattress sold! I think balancing profit with a purpose like Leesa® does is honorable and a company anyone should be proud to support! It’s a goal of Paul and I to provide our kids with well-rounded morals and values and there are lessons to be learned all around us! It’s so encouraging to see companies such as Leesa® doing just that!

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It’s dangerously comfortable® and with the 100-night sleep trial it’s a no brainer that Leesa® mattresses are a solid choice! I plan to fill all of our bedrooms with a Leesa® mattress because they really are A pathway to a better life®! We are all about that path in the Wise home!

HAVE FAITH MAMA(S)… Everybody has a dream® and Leesa® can help make them come true!

Disclosure: Leesa® provided a free mattress for me to review. However, all opinions stated were my own.

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Leo’s Birth Story!

Yesterday we celebrated Easter as a Family of FIVE (2018)! Last year on Easter I miscarried our baby (THE BABY I CARRIED BUT NEVER HELD). Last year it was so hard to imagine ever being a family of five… I thought it was something that would never become a reality for us. This year I was overcome with JOY, because our sweet Leo is here with us and without that miscarriage he wouldn’t be! During Easter I am reminded of the ultimate sacrifice Jesus Christ made for us, He truly wants the best for us and continues to provide in ways I never knew were possible! I am forever thankful!


“Thursday, June 8th 2017: My heart rejoices! I took a pregnancy test around 9:30pm and it read, “PREGNANT!” When getting ice cream tonight with my Mom and Dad, Lazar and Mila saw a rainbow and pointed it out to us with so much joy! I got chills! I just knew God was giving us our rainbow baby and He was already celebrating with that beautiful display in the sky! “I have told you these things, so that you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. BUT take heart; I have overcome the world!” -John 16:33″

Those are the words I journaled that Thursday night after taking the positive pregnancy test! Our God never ceases to amaze me! Leo was on the way!

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Fast forward nine months, it was only two days before my estimated due date and my scheduled c-section. My OBGYN and I came to the conclusion that a c-section was my best option for my delivery, as Leo was most likely going to be a big baby just like Lazar was. After a day of labor with Lazar (LAZAR’S BIRTH STORY), I needed a c-section because he was too big. So that is ultimately why we planned my c-section for Leo. Saturday, February 17th at 3:30am I woke up to a strong contraction. I got up to go to the bathroom and couldn’t fall back asleep, as the contractions remained consistent with ten minutes between each one. I decided to go downstairs around 5:30am and call nurse direct to let them know what was going on, since I didn’t know if my OB would just like me to come in right away knowing I need to have a c-section. The nurse connected me with the OBGYN on call and he advised me to wait until my contractions were five minutes apart (I assumed that would happen within the hour). My contractions ended up staying ten minutes apart for the entire day… It got to 3:30pm and I was getting frustrated and tired of the strong contractions every ten minutes. Paul had brought me lunch and I explained to him how uncomfortable I was, and really couldn’t imagine waiting this out for another (potential) two days until the 19th. He told me to call the OBGYN on call again and see if it was possible to come in even without the contractions being five minutes apart, because of my discomfort and ultimately knowing I need a c-section, so going through labor was basically pointless and unnecessary… The OBGYN agreed and told me he would be happy to do the c-section that night, but I would have to wait six hours since I just ate… I was so excited we were finally going to meet our rainbow baby!!

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I had a scheduled c-section with Mila (MEETING MILA), so I knew exactly what to expect. You go in, get undressed put a hospital gown on and the nurses start to prep you for surgery, lots of questions and a poke or two for the IV to get fluids started. I remember being overly nervous about the spinal I was about to receive. All I could think about was a giant needle going into my spine and getting slightly worried something could go wrong… I remember sitting in the hospital bed, being hooked up to a monitor to hear Leo’s heartbeat, and just asking God to be with me! I was honestly too nervous to string together a well thought-out prayer, all I knew was I needed HIM there with me and I knew He was!

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I knew HE was there because this was honestly the smoothest delivery! I felt so calm and at peace, it was different than the other two births… there was an extremely positive vibe throughout the surgery room and I just knew God was there guiding the whole thing! It was extra special and honestly meant to be that I went into labor on a Saturday, because normally only one person is allowed into the surgery room, but because there were no other c-sections that day (they don’t schedule on Saturday’s) my Mom was able to be in the room along with Paul! This was such a blessing, as she was able to watch the entire surgery. Paul doesn’t want to watch what happens on the other end of the curtain so I loved hearing all about what my Mom was able to see! She also video tapped the Doctor pulling Leo out and I will forever cherish that video!

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The cord was wrapped around his neck twice! Watching the OBGYN unwrap it from Leo’s tiny, fragile, little neck is so emotion for me to watch… that is something that could’ve taken Leo away from us, BUT God was there and He wasn’t going to let anything stand in the way! Our Leo had arrived! Our rainbow baby, the baby I didn’t know if I would ever get… Here and healthy as could be weighing in at 9lbs 10oz 21.5inches long!

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It’s amazing the immediate LOVE you feel the second you hear those first cries! There is always an intense pressure you feel as the OB pulls the baby from your womb, it’s like getting socked in the stomach, taking your breath away, although there isn’t pain associated with it, just pressure… LOTS of pressure… it’s such a strange sensation, but amazing all at the same time! Birth is a gift and miracle from God that I am so thankful I get to experience. I used to get really upset over the fact that I need c-sections, but I’ve come to realize that they are a blessing allowing our babies to arrive safely! I don’t take any of it for granted!


I was able to hold Leo right after he was born and it was honestly the most precious gift! After Lazar and Mila were born, I just wasn’t doing well enough to be able to hold them. So getting these first moments with Leo were so special to me! After I was all stitched up and back in my hospital room, the nurses come to check on you and make sure your uterus is starting to shrink back down. They push on your belly and it’s the most awful feeling… but having Leo in my arms is sooooo worth the pain! After the first couple pushes on my belly, the nurses exchanged concerned looks… they explained to me that I was loosing too much blood. They made calls to the OB and he said if it didn’t lighten up, to give me a suppository of medication to slow the bleeding and help my uterus shrink. The medication didn’t help and the nurses couldn’t explain why… they told me I would need a blood transfusion if things didn’t change…and quick. I felt overwhelmingly calm and just asked God to provide, I clearly and precisely asked Him to regulate my bleeding so I wouldn’t need the transfusion, I didn’t want to use blood that might save someone else’s life. He did exactly what I asked, my blood count was PRECISELY at the cut-off point for not needing a transfusion!


Leo and I spent the first couple nights together in the hospital alone. Paul stayed home with Lazar and Mila and I didn’t want to ask any family to stay with me in the hospital since it is honestly a restless experience, having nurses constantly checking in on you in the middle of the night, not to mention the couch/bed they offer is the furthest thing from desirable… I thought I would be really lonely , but it happened to be a really sweet time with just Leo and I. I enjoyed our one-on-one time together and it’s something I’m going to cherish for a lifetime! Paul brought Lazar and Mila everyday and I adored their visits along with all the family and friends visits as well!


Typically after a c-section they want you to stay in the hospital for four days, but I was able to return home after only two days and I certainly wasn’t complaining! I know some Mama’s with multiple kiddos like to stay in the hospital as long as they can for the extra peace, quite and nurse assistance, but I am most comfortable being at home with Paul and our babies! I couldn’t wait to get home and start our life together as a family of five!


I wasnt sure how Lazar and Mila would acclimate having a new baby around, but they did and are doing amazing! I am blessed to be surrounded by the most loving family who helped during my healing process! My sweet Mama came over almost everyday to help with Lazar and Mila, having her cook some of my favorite meals on top of that was such a blessing! It’s as if time moves in slow motion after you bring a baby home and I love that my Mom is able to spend those first couple weeks with me; it’s time we get to have together that we wouldn’t have otherwise and I cherish it… it’s just a happy time all-in-all!


Transitioning from two to three kids has had it’s challenges for sure, but it has ultimately been one of the greatest things to happen to us all! Leo is almost two months old and he has been a dream come true! Lazar and Mila wake up every morning asking about him and wanting to hold and kiss him! Nothing makes me happier than to see all three of my babies love on one another!


HAVE FAITH MAMA(S)… whether you are in the storm or experiencing the rainbow, aways remember God is right there with you, He wants the very best for you and when you rely on Him, putting all your trust in Him, you will experience dreams unfold before you plus some you never thought possible!





Post Baby Must-Haves!

A lot goes on after having a baby! A LOT! After all you have an entire new life to take care of! With that giant, new and exciting responsibility, we Mama’s tend to put our own needs by the wayside… Since having our third baby (Leo’s Birth Story coming soon) I have come to realize some of my favorite must-have’s (a couple for me and a couple for baby) post baby. I would love to list ALL of the essentials but honestly, there are so many amazing tools offered to Mom’s that it would be nearly impossible to narrow it down and each Mother is just so different, so I am going to focus on a few unique items that I have found success with for myself and my babies (each product is linked).

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One of the first things you are going to do after having your precious new bundle is nurse/breastfeed him or her. Every Mama’s breastfeeding journey seems to differ but if you do decide to breastfeed, your nipples are most likely going to suffer a bit in the beginning. But it’s just a little short-term pain for long-term gain and these Silverettes will help your nipples from that pain! I was amazed at how well these little silver cups worked! You simply place them over your nipples right after giving birth and when baby is ready to nurse, remove them and put them back on again after baby finishes. No nipple creams just the Silverettes! After a little time passes your nipples and milk production accommodate and you won’t need the Silverettes any longer. So simple and easy this product truly saved me the extra pain and prevented any cracking or discomfort and I will absolutely use these again if we ever have baby number four!

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Along with everything else, a Mama’s delivery is going to vary from woman to woman. I need c-sections and as unfortunate as that may be they provide a safe route for my babies to arrive and for that, I am thankful and at peace with it, knowing God makes no mistakes and has our best interest in mind. With that being said, I am extremely sore after baby arrives and having anything over my incision site is extremely tender, uncomfortable and could cause potential harm. I was overjoyed when I came across these c-section undies by Belly Bandit! Not only are the undies super comfortable they provide extra support with a corset-type structure. This structure alleviates back pain for me, since your abdomen muscles are shot. Having bigger babies has caused my abdominal wall to separate severely (diastasis recti) and these undies have helped with that gap immensely! The undies aren’t just for Mothers who have had c-sections they are also extremely effective for women who have vaginal births as well. If nothing else, these undies help shrink the post-baby belly in a safe and effective way which is a serious perk!

There are so many different options as far as sleepers and rockers go… the list is never-ending! I’ve found that these three are my favorite! I loved using the Mumbelli womb-like bed for Leo when we first brought him home, because like I said, it’s a womb-like transition bed. It’s extra soft material makes it cozy and warm. There is also a wedge insert that gives a slight incline incase baby were to spit up, it prevents choking and acid reflex. Being a bigger baby, Leo grew out of the Mumbelli rather quickly but transitioned into the Snuggle Me Organic seamlessly! The Snuggle Me Organic sleeper hugs your baby in the best most safe way! It’s super soft and prevents baby from rolling. It also fits perfectly in bassinets or easily set it in a crib, pack-n-play or just on you couch!  Now, when Leo isn’t upstairs sleeping, I like having a safe option for him to just relax or sleep and the Charlie Crane Levo Baby Rocker is as ideal as it is beautiful! It gives a hammock feeling with the perfect balance of soft and sturdy material. The incline is just right, keeping the baby upright but still comfortable enough for sleep. I love how this rocker blends perfectly into our home decor but also functions ideally for our sweet baby boy!

Lastly, if you are a Mama of more than one babe, you will most likely have your hands FULL so having a WildBird Ring Sling alleviates that quite literally! The sling goes along with some of the other products I love and have mentioned through this post… it’s soft yet sturdy! I really think that is key maybe…after baby is born all they really want is to feel secure but it has to be soft and cozy for them as well! After all they just came from your warm and cozy womb! The WildBird ring slings come with a few different fabrics and can support your baby until they are well into toddlerhood! I’m even able to nurse Leo while he is in the sling so my hands are free all while I’m taking care of him or if he just wants to be held (which most babies do) I am able to do so while taking care of Lazar and Mila’s needs, it’s a serious win-win and a must-have for all Mama’s I’m convinced of it! It’s easy to pack along with all the other baby essentials taking up little to no room and it’s just an added bonus that it’s beautiful!


There you have it… that’s my short list of some of my top must-haves! Like I said, all Mama’s are so different with their own unique experiences and needs… but as far as my preferences go, I would absolutely recommend these items! I will also say, although there are plenty of amazing products out there for basically every Mom/baby need, that’s not what it’s all about, we can certainly get by without it, all our babies truly need is our love, affection and attention over everything else!

HAVE FAITH MAMA(S)… and remember with all the must-haves we think we “must-have” it’s so important to realize that’s not what it’s all about… God wants us and designed us to simply be there for our babies! Let all the other stuff just help make it a little more smooth…and comfy!

A Day in Her Life!

I was asked by the lovely Emily Morrice to share a bit about what my life looks like from day-to-day! I was honored but also thought oh boy, what do I possibly have to offer? My day-to-day isn’t all that exciting or glamorous! Most days you will find my kiddos and I at home, but I certainly do not take my ordinary days for granted! I am forever thankful for the life God has blessed me with! So here goes nothing!

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Being a SAHM (stay at home Mom) has always been a dream of mine. Seriously, ever since I was a young girl I would fantasize about the days I would have my own babies to take care of. God has blessed me with the two most amazing children with one on the way! Lazar is 3, Mila is 2 and Leo is due February 19th! Having kiddos so close in age is also something I always thought I would do if possible, probably because that is how I grew up and I loved the closeness my brothers and I shared!

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A typical day for Lazar, Mila and I starts off by smothering Paul (my husband, their Daddy) with lots of hugs and kisses as he leaves for work! Most days (if I’m feeling up for it) I load the kids in the car and drive to get a coffee. Some days we go to a coffee shop to hang out, get breakfast and other days it’s a quick drive-through. I like to get out of the house even if it’s just for a little car ride; it just seems to make all the difference. We live in Wisconsin and when winter hits, being outside isn’t really an option… and feeling cooped up inside gets old, especially for an energetic 2 and 3 year old!

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After we return home from a little coffee trip I like to let Lazar and Mila have some playtime before naps/rest-time. I decided to make our basement into a playroom and the kids love running around and playing down there. We decided not to put a TV down there so the kids won’t just focus on that, instead I play fun music (which is so great because it almost always turns into a dance party)!

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After “playtime” I make the kids some sort of snack. I typically make them a protein shake for breakfast, unless we eat during our coffee outing. I use the meal shake from Shaklee, they love it and ask for it daily! After their snack/shake I like to have some rest-time. Mila still takes a nap so if I put a movie on and cuddle up on the couch with them, Mila will usually fall asleep while Lazar relaxes watching the movie. When the movie finishes and Mila wakes up, it’s usually time for lunch. Lunch typically includes anything from, pb and j’s to shredded chicken usually with some sort of fruit or veggie. But don’t let me fool you, a lot of days are filled with an excess of snacks and lunch turns into an all-day kind of thing! haha

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My husband works very hard to allow me to stay at home with the kids and I will forever appreciate that. I knew I still wanted to contribute if I could while remaining at home. I wanted to start a blog and from my blog I thought up and designed t-shirts. I decided to start an Etsy shop where I sell my shirts. I love that my t-shirts have encouraged ladies all over the world! My goal in creating the t-shirts was simply that, to encourage ladies and make them feel they could do anything with just having faith! I also recently became a Maskcara makeup artist! I’m beyond obsessed with the makeup and knew it was a product I could stand behind and share with other ladies… again helping them feel good about themselves! Being able to run my Etsy shop and sell makeup from home has provided extra money for our family that I am proud of! If it ended up taking time away from my kids I would simply stop, because my first priority is raising my babies. I’m just thankful I am able to juggle both right now.

Each day varies, but our end-of-the day can sometimes be visiting my parents house or finishing the night with a bath and food Daddy brings us home (since he owns a restaurant with his family). Our nighttime routine went from a 7pm bedtime with both kids in their cribs sleeping soundly through the night. However, these days it looks more like Lazar sleeping with Paul and I while Mila sleeps in her bed in her and Lazar’s room. Our kids have always been exceptional sleepers and this new routine has allowed that trend to remain so no complaints here. I honestly never thought my kids would like to co-sleep since they always did so amazing in their own cribs but I do love it and I know how quickly everything can change, so I’m just giving thanks for the season we are in and embracing all that comes with it!

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Every morning I wake up and each night I go to bed, I thank God and praise Him for this life He has provided for me! I know I wouldn’t have any of it without Him and I truly don’t take a second of it for granted. I mean it when I say, I often well-up with tears when I look at my family and wonder how in the world I get the opportunity to have Paul, Lazar, Mila and soon Leo in my life! My day-to-day may not be exciting or glamorous to some, BUT to me, it’s the best days of my life!

HAVE FAITH MAMA(S)… Your days may seem little and unimportant but one day you’ll look back and realize those were the big and best days of your life!

Hospital Bag Essentials.

Yay! It’s finally time to bring your baby home from the hospital! You’ve been waiting for this moment for 40 weeks (possibly more)! But all of a sudden you might feel overwhelmed… like, “what does the baby really need right away?” “What do I need?” “Do I need to bring snacks?” “Or should I bring all my shower gear?!” Ahhhh it’s simple really, in reality ALL you need is to be there for your new little one! He/She want’s nothing more than to be snuggled and fed by His/Her new Mama! BUT, if you are wondering what things might be helpful during your hospital stay after you meet your most precious gift, this is a list I came to perfect after having done this two times before in the last 3 years!


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You most likely bought or received some super, trendy, rad diaper bag that has all the right compartments for all the little things you and your sweet babe will need, not only in the hospital but also well afterwards. Might as well get it nice and ready for all the future adventures you’ll plan to take after you’ve given yourself the proper amount of time to heal/recover that is! I will be bringing my Whirlwind diaper bag along! This bag is as functional as it is beautiful! Here is a link to the Whirlwind bag I own! I highly recommend this bag whether you are a first-time Mom or a seasoned one, this bag is amazing!

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T W O:

Now that you have the perfect bag to carry all the essentials, you have to fill it! The hospital is going to provide you with diapers and wipes for your baby, but I use The Honest Company brand for all my diapering. I like to bring my own (this is completely personal preference) I look at it like, I would like to start my baby off with what I will ultimately be using on him/her right away, rather than having to switch and possibly cause an unnecessary rash or something from the change. The odds of that actually happening are probably zero, but like I said it’s simply my personal preference. You can always ask someone from your hospital what types of diapers and wipes they use and you may decide to use the same ones!

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T H R E E:

Diaper rash cream! Honestly you’re probably not going to need this, but this follows my motto with bringing my own diapers and wipes. I like to be prepared with the products I trust and plan to use on my baby when we are home. Not saying what the hospital is offering isn’t adequate, I’m sure it is more than ok, just going back to my personal preference again. This is also apart of The Honest Company brand that I trust in and love; since it has worked great for Lazar and Mila.

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F O U R:

Receiving blankets! I rely on these blankets for so many things. You can swaddle your baby in them, you can use it as a nursing cover, you can use it as a soft surface to lay your baby on. Ultimately, I like to use it as a spit-up rag. So glamorous, I know! haha But, babies spit-up, drool, etc and you want something silky soft to take care of those inevitable “spills!” My favorite brand is Aden and Anais! These blankets are super soft and just so convenient to have! You won’t regret packing this in your diaper bag ever!

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F I V E:

Swaddle! Your baby was just born and was literally in the most comfortable situation possible… floating around in your womb, nice, cozy and warm. Now they are out in the cold world and want that squishy warmth back! That’s where a swaddle comes in handy! I love seeing my baby perfectly content and swaddled! I mean how adorable is a swaddled baby?! This swaddle is called an Embe swaddle, it has two different options for swaddling your fresh new babe! It can wrap them completely up keeping them cozy or you can give them a cooler feel by letting their little legs hang out, either way it’s essential for your hospital bag!

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S I X:

Zipadeezip! I cannot tell you how many Mama’s I have recommended to this product! It is something so simple, yet truly effective! Typically your baby won’t need this until they outgrow their swaddle but in some cases (like my Mila) babies won’t always like being swaddled. The zippered-zip is literally called a swaddle transition, so when they get stronger and can break out of their swaddle they are ready for the zippered-zip. Like I said, not all babies like to be swaddled so zipping them up into this ensures they will be kept warm without potentially suffocating by having a blanket over their face. I know that sounds dramatic, but I never compromise safety. My 2 and 3 year old still sleep with their “Ni Ni’s” (zipadee-zips)! I’ll be bringing a zippered-zip just incase Leo doesn’t like the swaddle like Mila.

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S E V E N:

Outfit(s)! Ok, again, the hospital is going to put your baby in a fresh, new onesie, but  I like to bring freshly washed zipper sleepers. I bring a few… in case of spit-ups and blowouts. I also like to bring a couple different size options. Lazar never fit into newborn clothing, so I was happy I brought 3 month sleepers as well.  Don’t pack that adorable little sweater vest and suspender outfit your trendy Aunt bought you, stick with the zipper sleepers! You’ll thank me for this one! First of all your baby doesn’t care about fashion, they just want to be comfortable! Second, I specially mentioned zipper sleepers because trying to button 675 buttons when you have a fussy newborn isn’t fun! Zippers are your best friend especially during the middle of the night blow-outs! I should add, I love the sleepers that have the flap on the wrists so you can put it over your babies hands. Not only will this keep your baby extra warm it will also prevent them from scratching their face and they will if their little fingers aren’t covered, you don’t want to see your babe all scratched up, they don’t like it and you won’t either!

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E I G H T:

Hat and mitts! I think you can tell that I really put a lot of thought into keeping my baby warm and comfy! Like I said they just came from the comfort of your warm, squishy womb, now they want the next best thing! Keeping their little head and hands warm is going to greatly help them remain comfy and content! The mitts are also helpful if the clothing you have them in doesn’t have the hand coverage I mentioned in number 7. These little mitts really will save them from scratching you and themselves!

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N I N E:

Now onto items I plan to bring for myself! 1-8 should be all the extra things you need for your baby. Your baby isn’t the only one thats going to be a little less comfortable… I like to be the most comfortable I can be, given the situation. So taking the stiff hospital gown off is always a great first step! I like to bring a thin Pinkblush delivery robe so it’s easy to nurse in and it’s not in the way when the nurses come to check/push on your belly. I’m also going to bring my Dwell and Slumber dress along this year as well! It’s a caftan gown that’s functional for nursing as well!

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T E N:

Nipple and hand cream! If you plan on nursing you will certainly want nipple cream! This is one of those things ya just gotta trust me on! Your nipples are not use to being used constantly, so they are inevitably going to get sore, this is where the Tubby Todd nursing salve will come in handy, its also safe for your baby! The Tubby Todd hand cream is just an added bonus to have along as well!

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I was also sent a product from Italy that is focused on #HAPPYNIPPLES It’s a safe, effective and natural way to soothe and protect your nipples through nursing! I have never had the opportunity to use this product and I am so excited! I was told to put the Silverettes on immediately after giving birth, then take them off while nursing, but as soon as the baby is finished eating, to put them back on again. The silver will sooth and it also has healing properties! Let’s just say, these things sound like a dream! Im excited to let you know how they work!

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E L E V E N:

Boppy Pillow! Hopefully you received this little gem at your baby shower, because if you have decided you are going to nurse your baby this pillow will come in handy greatly (especially is you have a c-section, it keeps the baby off your incision). I like to bring it to the hospital because they don’t offer one and the pillows there just don’t do the trick! There are so many different options for boppy pillow covers but this one from Madly Wish is stunning!

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T W E L V E:

Mama’s going home outfit! Really the last thing you want to think about is what you are going to wear on your car ride home from the hospital but you have to be prepared and you will want it to be comfortable, especially if you are having a c-section, since it is a major surgery and you are going to be a lot more sore from the incision than if you have a natural birth. I’m so excited to wear my Blanqi postpartum + nursing support leggings and tank top!  I’ve been living in my Blanqi maternity support legging and tank top, so I know these won’t disappoint!

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I’ll be wearing my Blanqi maternity belly support leggings and tank top along with my Madewell sweater coat and Ugg slippers to the hospital, so when I leave I plan on just switching out my maternity wear for my postpartum wear!

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T H I R T E E N:

Makeup/shower essentials! I like to bring shampoo and conditioner with a fresh bar of soap/facial wipes and really anthying else in order to feel fresh and clean. Don’t forget your tooth brush and tooth paste! It’s so easy for me to pack my makeup since it’s all-in-one convenient compact! Let me know if you want to know more about my Maskcara makeup routine and how I can easily set you up with it as well!

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L A S T L Y:

There are going to be some personalized things you may want to bring, like a certain camera, essential oils, chapstick or whatever it may be… don’t forget to bring your phone and phone charger. ALSO, if you want to give your baby a pacifier don’t forget to bring at least two, possibly three just to be safe! But really, it’s truly all about you and your baby! Be there for him/her and give them all the snuggles and kisses possible! It goes by way too quickly! I envy the gals who are able to have home births but unfortunately that’s not my reality and it may not be yours either. It’s so important not to focus on what’s missing or what could have been, it’s just ESSENTIAL to focus on that new beautiful life God just blessed you with!

HAVE FAITH MAMA(S): Remember there is nothing more essential than loving that new baby God just blessed you with! Soak it all in and focus on that and let this list just be a helpful reminder of some other things you may want to bring along!




It’s not the house that makes the home!

We were so excited to work with the Atkinson Candy Co. They sent us a big box of goodies that included everything you would ever need to assemble the perfect gingerbread house! I knew Lazar and Mila would love this experience for the obvious reason… candy! Atkinson Candy Co. made it extra special and delicious, providing lots of yummy candy options. I was determined to make the gingerbread house as perfect as possible, but as we got started I realized it isn’t about making it perfect that matters… I quickly realized it’s all about the memories we are sharing and creating through this gingerbread house experience!

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I talk about this often, but it’s something that holds a lot of truth; I think as Moms we feel like we need to get everything perfect… We try and provide the best for our families and sometimes our idea of perfect isn’t what our children and husband actually need or even expect, contrary to what we might think.

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As much as I try to keep the house spotless… having the laundry done, folded and put away nicely, floors vacuumed and moped, and dishes washed, dried and put away, I know thats not what makes a house a home.

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Having a home is a place that is filled with love and laughter with the occasional tears and arguments that inevitably happen, but ultimately make everyone stronger! Grace and patience are qualities that I am constantly reminding myself to give not only to my children and husband, but to myself as well!

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So as we assembled the gingerbread home, I made sure to let-go and let Lazar and Mila have fun with it! I encouraged them to use whatever pieces of Atkinson candy they wanted, even if that meant a half eaten piece! I wanted them to know that just because something isn’t put together perfectly doesn’t mean that it isn’t.

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The kitchen became more and more messy but the memories being created only got more and more amazing! I truly enjoyed watching them get creative and enjoy their time!

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The finished gingerbread house currently sits on our kitchen table and every time Lazar and Mila pass it by they love to look at it and point it out to me! “LOOK Mama! LOOOOOK!” Just hearing the joy and excitement they still have, made the disaster of a kitchen totally worth it and I already look forward to next year, since this will most definitely become a annual tradition in our home… all thanks to Atkinson Candy Co!

HAVE FAITH MAMA(S)… remember it’s not the house that makes the home! It’s all the little, wonderful moments and experiences that do! Lets make sure we don’t miss out on them!

**ALSO** Use code: HAVEFAITHMAMA to receive 20% off your entire purchase at Atkinson’s online Candy Shop!

Head over to: if you would like to vote for our gingerbread home!